Friday, December 31, 2010

New Year Resolution

A Wife of Noble Character

10£ Who can find a virtuous and capable wife?
She is more precious than rubies.

11 Her husband can trust her,
and she will greatly enrich his life.

12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.

13 She finds wool and flax
and busily spins it.

14 She is like a merchant’s ship,
bringing her food from afar.

15 She gets up before dawn to prepare breakfast for her household
and plan the day’s work for her servant girls.

16 She goes to inspect a field and buys it;
with her earnings she plants a vineyard.

17 She is energetic and strong,
a hard worker.

18 She makes sure her dealings are profitable;
her lamp burns late into the night.

19 Her hands are busy spinning thread,
her fingers twisting fiber.

20 She extends a helping hand to the poor
and opens her arms to the needy.

21 She has no fear of winter for her household,
for everyone has warm£ clothes.

22 She makes her own bedspreads.
She dresses in fine linen and purple gowns.

23 Her husband is well known at the city gates,
where he sits with the other civic leaders.

24 She makes belted linen garments
and sashes to sell to the merchants.

25 She is clothed with strength and dignity,
and she laughs without fear of the future.

26 When she speaks, her words are wise,
and she gives instructions with kindness.

27 She carefully watches everything in her household
and suffers nothing from laziness.

28 Her children stand and bless her.
Her husband praises her:

29 “There are many virtuous and capable women in the world,
but you surpass them all!”

30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last;
but a woman who fears the LORD will be greatly praised.

31 Reward her for all she has done.
Let her deeds publicly declare her praise.
(Proverbs 31:10-31)
My goal is to be a Godly wife and mother and woman.
I don't want to be a worldly wife or mother or woman anymore.
Jesus, it's time to make me new.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Glorious Day

Living, He loved me
Dying, He saved me
Buried, He carried my sins far away
Rising, He justified freely forever
One day He’s coming
Oh glorious day, oh glorious day

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Fun in the Snow

I took the kids to play out side and we had a blast. i just wish i could find my ski pants so i could jump in the snow too. i'll just have to buy new ones so i can have fun too.

She wasn't so happy that the horn was frozen.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Lucious starts Hockey !

Lucious started Hockey last night, right down the street. It was a beautiful night to start, we got to the rink and the coach came over and talked to us, and he will help me get some hockey stuff for Lucious. Lucious got his skates on and his helmet and we went out on the ice.

Lucious was scared at first, he fall down a lot, but he kept getting back up.
The rink was divided some of the kids were on one side of the rink practicing hockey and the other side of the rink was free play.
We skated on the free play side while his team mates (who knew how to skate) played on the other side.
Lucious asked for a hockey stick, the coach gave us one that was way to big, but my sweet boy wanted it all the same! With a stick and a puck in hand Lucious just started smacking the puck around, and he was really good and doing it.
With about 20 minutes till the end of the game, he expressed a desire to play with the other kids, well I said I didn't think that was a good idea, but we went over to the couch, and Lucious told him what he wished for... and the coach called him in to be goalie and guess what???
The first puck that came his way, he stopped !!!
It was so cool!!!
After being goalie... out he fearlessly went, to play with the other team members and chased after the puck with all the other kids.
I was so proud of him!!!
Mind you he couldn't skate as good as the other kids, but he didn't let that bug him, and he didn't give up.
He fell so many times and some times came down really hard on the ice,
but he always got back up.
As his mom I was so proud of him, and how hard he played.
If I wasn't convinced before that he would like hockey, I sure am now...
So I am going to go buy some hockey stuff for my little guy.
As you can see in the pictures below he had so much fun.
That's my boy!!!

Monday, December 6, 2010

For the Unrau family

Our family is going through some hard times right now and this song really fits.

Hear our cry, Lord, we pray
Our faces down, our hands are raised
You called us out, we turned away
We’ve turned away

With shipwrecked faith, the idols rise
We do what is right in our own eyes
Our children now will pay the price
We need Your light, Lord, shine Your light

If we’ve ever needed You
Lord, it’s now, Lord, it’s now
We are desperate for Your hand
We’re reaching out, we’re reaching out

All our hearts, all our strength
With all our minds, we’re at Your feet
May Your kingdom come in our hearts and lives
Let Your church arise, let Your church arise

We’re reaching out
We’re reaching out

We need You now
Revive us now
We need You now

Song by Casting Crowns

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Sweet Bylla: Slide Show

Put the speakers up to hear the beautiful song that goes with this post,
and click play on slide show of Bylla...

Monday, November 8, 2010

Sweet !!!!!!!!!


*Number 5 - Get a van, and I did. its my moms,

but I am paying for it for now till we can get our own.

*Number 6 - Get my full drivers, and I did !!! I am so pumped!!!

I didn't think i would be ready for the driving test but, Jason told me that I was more then ready. He was right, I got it. I am so happy, now I can drive places with out Jason. its so great.
I feel so blessed that everything is going good in my life.
Thank you Jesus. Everything I am and have it because of you !!!

Saturday, October 30, 2010

101 in 1001

So I did two things..........
I have been going through my list right now and, I see there are 4 things I have done!!!

#16 Get Lucious in swimming

and hockey.

*Swimming has started and hockey doesn't start till its cold enough to make ice. he has hot wheels skits.
#52 Make a new friend.
* When we moved to our new town, I got invited to a pre-school class and I meet a woman named Marena ( sorry if i spelt your name wrong) her son is in the same class as Lucious.

She has invited me to her home for lunch next week.
Swimming is scheduled next week too.

#58 Make behavior charts for Lucious and Sibylla.
*There are 6 things for them to do and, if they do them ... they get a star.
5 stars gets them one dollar!
There really doing good about the putting the dishes in the sink but not too good at cleaning there room:-)

# 86 Call the police if I see some one breaking the law.
*I saw some guy showing off for his friends one night... he was driving like a crazy man!!! Then his car went out of control and crashed his car into the side walk!!! So I did what any responsible mom would do.... called the police and hopefully they got charged !!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Southland Church

God has done such an amazing thing. Southland church has been growing like wild fire, and we need to buy the land beside the church. the steinbach council said no to selling the land to the church, but God told the church that he was going to give that land to us, so the pastor ask the church to fast and pray that the Lord would move and give us that land and today we find out that the steinbach council is going to be selling the land to southland church. God has done a miracle and he is the only one to prise in this. he moved in the heart of the people in charge of selling it. God made a way when it seemed inpossiable. Jesus you are so faithful and you keep your promises. you are so good and worth all the glory. God i know, because you have already told southland that you will give it to us, for the left hand turn to be made in the boulevard for going into southland. May your kingdom come and your will be done!!!!!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Ted Dekker

He has a new Book coming out!!!!!!!.....
this clip is from ted dekker blog........and i can't wait for this to come out.
super pumped !!!!

At a recent gathering of over four hundred fans, Ted Dekker, New York Times bestselling author of more than 20 books, announced something so unexpected it drew a collective gasp from the room. He is writing a new series, The Forbidden, to rival the scope and impact of his beloved Circle Series, and he is collaborating with award-winning novelist Tosca Lee.
“I write for the same reason my readers pick up these stories: to discover,” Dekker told the crowd. “I want to explore the themes common in all of my books—redemption, love, hope—in a completely different way. But, this story is so far-reaching that it needs two imaginations to fuel it.”

This story would require a unique blend of Dekker-style thrills and grit wrapped in masterful prose like he has never delivered before. It would require joining forces with someone able to help elevate the story and make it larger than life. It seemed like an order too big to fill until he discovered Tosca Lee.

“Our goal is simple: to combine what Ted does best, that his readers know and love him for, with what I do best–all to deliver the reader more powerful story than either of us could have done alone,” Tosca Lee said.

Forbidden, the first novel in The Forbidden series, will release in September 2011 from Center Street (Hachette Book Group). Described by the authors as “a thriller for tomorrow”, the world as we know it is unrecognizable. Four hundred eighty years have passed since civilization’s brush with extinction. Perfect order reigns and humanity’s greatest threats have all been silenced under the rule of a totalitarian government. There is no disease, no malice, no hate, and no war. There is only peace until the day one man discovers the truth: Every single soul walking the earth is actually dead and the human heart has been stripped of all that makes it human. Now only he is alive and has the knowledge that can once again awaken humanity.

Dekker is the New York Times bestselling author of more than 20 books, including The Bride Collector, BoneMan’s Daughters, Adam, Thr3e, and The Circle Series. His novels Thr3e and House have been adapted as feature films, and more of his books are in development with Lionsgate Entertainment. Visit for more information.

Lee is the critically acclaimed author of Demon: A Memoir—Christy Award finalist and ForeWord Magazine Book of the Year Silver Award sinner—and Havah: The Story of Eve, which received a starred review from Publishers Weekly. Visit for more information.

Last time i wrote about Ted dekkers books. i had to read still a bit of his books.
i have seens then finished 3 of his books and i am on the 4th on right now and iam buying 3 more next weekend !!

Star Gazing

My number 82 on my 101 in 1001 list is to do star gazing with the kids and last night we come home late and the stars were beautiful. so we wake them up from the car ride, Lucious didnt want to wake up so he went to bed. but sibylla was very happy to look up at the stars with me. it was beautiful out so we went and layed down in the grass and looked up at the stars and talk about how Jesus knows every star by name. Sibylla said we should sleep put side so i cruled up beside her and said we could. about 5 mins later she said it was time to go in. I had a great time looking at them with Sibylla.

we went inside and i layed down with her in her bed and i sang her some songs. I love u my baby girl !!

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

101 in 1001 Changes

Changes to my 101 in 1001

number 71- get a spider
changing because I really really dont want one
and because Lucious is scared of them and because my hubby said no way.
Lol so I am changing 71 to getting a snake :) which I really really want !!!

Number 10- getting my scars removed
i'm leaving them there as a reminder for the freedom that Christ has given me and that I can be a light of hope to others who do cut. So number 10 is being changed to getting my tattoo removed.

Number 48 I am not changing but splitting up. So I am taking away what is on
# 45 and putting new windows on it and 48 will just be new siding.

# 41 Changing it to going to an Enpower with my mom. I've been to 2 of them but I need to go with my mom. Hopefully this spring.

And some things that are done on my 101 in 1001 list are :

#13 teach my kids the meaning of forgiveness
believe it or not, but my kids are very forgiving. When ever some one hurts them and when someone says im sorry to them for hurting them, they right away say, I forgive you. Its so sweet.

#64 walking with the kids every day.
Well having to walk Lucious to school every day I think that works for that. We walk
about 40 mins every day so its really good.

#1 watching only 2 hours a week of TV.
Diffidently got this one. I and Jason only watch movies and only like once a week, unless its a message from the church were watching then its more.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Mother-Daughter Day

Me and my beautiful little girl went out for a wonderful walk to the town store/cafe for lunch. just the two of us, which we haven't done before. we had such a great time. she picked up a bunch of rocks and wanted to feed them to the cows we past. lol and then she wanted to keep them because she said it was her money, but then i showed her the little card daddy gave me and told her we dont need rocks we have daddys money, and that put a big smile on her. lol
we both had cheese bugers, she didnt eat her but she wanted to give it to daddy. but she ate all her fyrs, but i am thinking that she ate more kechup then fyrs. then we shared a chocolate bar together. It was such a great time. when we got home i told jason that iam going to take her out just me and her once a month. i would like to do it more often but we trying to save money so, but jason said he's fine with once a month.
i feel so blessed to have such a wonderful daughter. i hope we always have boys from now on, so she will always be my one and only baby girl !!

Friday, September 17, 2010

For Husbands & Fathers

Lead me

I look around and see my wonderful life
Almost perfect from the outside
In picture frames I see my beautiful wife
Always smiling
But on the inside I can hear her saying…

Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can’t
Don’t leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams what about us?

Show me you’re willing to fight
That I’m still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone;

I see their faces look in their innocent eyes
They’re just children from the outside
I’m working hard I tell myself they’ll be fine
They’re in independent
But on the inside I can hear them saying…

Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can’t
Don’t leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams but what about us?

Show me you’re willing to fight
That I’m still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone;

So Father give me the strength
To be everything I’m called to be
Oh Father show me the way
To lead them
Won’t You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can’t
Don’t want to leave them hungry for love
Chasing things that I could give up

I’ll show them I’m willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me ’cause I can’t do this alone

Father lead me ’cause I can’t do this alone

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Sunday, September 12, 2010

Head Covering


I have decide to wear a head covering.
Lol I know I lot of people who read my blog are
probably shacking there heads but I feel called by my Lord to
wear one, and I am not one to say no to God.
I have spend almost a year reading and studying and praying about this.

I will simply give the verse in the bible to why I
am choosing to wear one.
1 Corinthians 11: 1-16

I will also copy a blog I read about head coverings.

“Here is a simple way to explain 1 Corinthians 11

When you look at the original Greek, its meaning is quite clear. Two words for covering were turned into one when translated to English.
The reason for wearing the covering, is because of the Fall. Eve usurped her role. From that point on, a womans Natural glory had to be covered when she communed with God. A women covers so she may take her God given place when she is before the throne praying, and when she is witnessing to others. The angels see this, even those that are fallen, and marvel at the obedience shown to God.”

"The wearing of fabric head coverings in worship was universally the practice of Christian women until the twentieth century. What happened? Did we suddenly find some biblical truth to which the saints for thousands of years were blind? Or were our biblical views of women gradually eroded by the modern feminist movement that has infiltrated the Church of Jesus Christ which is "the pillar and ground of the truth"
Galatians is a powerful polemic against the Judaizers who were trying to draw the churches of Galatia away from salvation by grace through faith in Jesus Christ alone.
Paul wrote to correct two errors: Do you have to become a Jew before you can be saved? The second error was, "If Christ has set us free, then we can live as we please!"
He demonstrates clearly the only way sinful man can stand before a holy God is by God’s grace made available through the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. We are saved by grace through faith in Christ alone, and we are also sanctified by grace through faith (3:3). The Judaizers taught that works was necessary for salvation and sanctification. It was a religion based on legalism. Someone said, "Judaism was the cradle of Christianity and very nearly its grave."

If I could I would wear this kinda head covering but my husband wont let me.
So I have one that covers all my hair but not my neck. There bandanas, and more
of the menonite look. Jason says I look like a Muslim.

This is the kinda head covering I will be wearing.
I have a bunch of different kinda colores.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Saying GoodBye

On Sept 8th was the Ecumenical Memorial and Committal of Ashes Service for the baby we Miscarried. I was a beautiful day for it, and it was in the same cemetery that my Grandparents are bared at, so i got to go visit them too. It was hard to be there. They had the ashes of all the babys miscarried/stillborns in the past 6 months put in to the crypt. that was the hardest part for me, them pouring the ashes into it. there was a lot of people there, it was hard to be alone, plus my kids were there so. I am happy that my family came, thanks to mom, brentt and mom and dad (unrau) for coming. and thank you so much for my loving husband, who saw how sad i was and went and bought me a new Ted Dekker book. thanks sweety.
and a big thanks to St.Boniface Hospital for taking care of my little baby with such care and doing a beautiful service for him.

Rest in the arms of our sweet Lord Jesus Christ, My Baby Crimson.
Mommy loves you and thinks of you everyday.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Ted Dekker

On my 101 in 1001 list, one of them is to read all of Ted Dekker's books. i have about 10 more to go. 4 of them short stories. i just finished boneman's daughters. very good. my next book on my list is House. then iam hoping Tea with Hezbollah. The book is not a novel like all his others. its about a trip he and a friend made to the middle east. Below the title it reads, sitting at the enemies table. my mother in law is reading it right now so when i get it back from her, i know my nose will be in that book all night. being in bed for the past week i read boneman's daughters in 4 days. I plan on owning all of Ted Dekker's book and reading them all. i love all his books. i haven't read one i haven't liked. Adam was the hardest to read because of how my past was but i still read it in 2 days. His new book Immanuel's veins looks soooo good. it comes out sept 7 and i will be the first in line for it. i know jason might say other wise but i know i will get my way. :)
the ones i still have to read are:
- Blink of an eye
-The bride collector
-A man called blessed
-Immanuels veins
-House (reading now)
-Tea with hezbolliah
and there are four short stories.
I'm super pumped about reading them all. My favorte our, Black, Red, White, and Green !!!
You can find all stuff Ted Dekker at his website.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010


My Beautiful, sweet baby growing in my belly is gone.
On sunday morning i started bleeding and i went to the hospital and they couldn't
find a heart beat, and at 12 weeks you should be able to find one.
on monday morning i went to my doctor who is taking care of my pregnantcy and he
also couldn't find a heart beat and this morning i had an ultrasound and it showed that the
baby was not alive. My heart is breaking but God has not let go of my hand.
Jason has been by my side and my mom too. and my sister in law is helping a lot to because
she also had a miscarrage 3 years ago. i am so greatful for the loving family i have all around me.
and i am also so greatful that i can always feel Jesus' love on me. as hard as this is, i am at peace with it. I know my sweet baby is in the arms of my Lord and i will see that baby when i get to heaven. it remains me of that song...oh i dont know who sings it but it gose..."lost befor i had you, gone befor you came, but i love you just the same. and i know in heaven will meet again." its a beautiful song about just what iam feeling.
thank you Jesus for the wonderful 3 months i had this wonderful child growing in me.
I love you Jesus and i trust your plan for me is good and full of love.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

101 in 1001 update

so looking over my list i can see i few things that are done.

46: having another baby. i am pregnant, so its in the works lol
63: giving jason a head and back rub once a week, which i do almost everyday.
77:getting a new cell phone. jason got a new one so i got his palm. its ok.
98: going camping with the kids, well we booked it and went and it went so very bad that we ended up leaving didn't go good at all.

so those are done.
i know i saw a few things on the list that are almost done. so i will update again in a couple of weeks.
till then.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

12 weeks

I am now 12 weeks along. my sickness is pretty much gone. thank the Lord.
and i have already started with tuns of pain in my pelvis. everything is moving out of the way
for the baby to grow. i cant wait to feel he or she move around. next week i get to go hear the heart beat. we will for sure find out the sex so we can get everything ready. me and my mother in law both think iam having a girl. i thought of a pretty name, Crimson. i haven't ran it by jason yet so its just a maybe. march feels so far away. i can feel i already have a belly, you cant see it but i can feel it, i cant lay on my belly, i feel like iam laying on a ball. every day sibylla asks me if she can see the baby now, lol she is super pumped. i am too. i am so happy iam having a baby.

so ya that is whats going on lately. i will leave you with a little pic of the cuties.

Friday, August 6, 2010

My Lover

I just wanted to say, that even though i am sick and can hardly stand, that i love my
Jesus. He is my strong hand, he is the only thing that i look to for help.
I love you so much my Jesus, you are always with me and my heart will always be yours !!!
i never want anyone but you. i love you so much, i can't wait for the
day when i can see you and you will look in to my eyes and hold me and speak your
love to me. I am so in love with you that when i think of you, my heart takes a lep and i am
breathless with your love that i feel every min of my life. I will never leave you. i am so madly in love with you. Jesus, i love you !!!!!!!!!!! ALWAYS !!

Saturday, July 17, 2010


So i am becoming sick. i am having a hard time eating, i feel like throwing up all the time.
i started my morning sickness pills as soon as i found out i was pregnant, but they don't seem
to be working. i really hope i dont end up back in the hospital. i dont want to be away from the kids so long. when i was pregnant with sibylla, and i had to be in the hospital, lucious was so mad at me for being gone so long. Please keep me in your prayers. thanks.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Number Four

I'AM PREGNANT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This past month i have just been so gumpy and crying all the time, and today we
went to go to the doctor to go back on my meds and i took a pregnantcy test and they said no
i wasn't pregnant, so we walked out and i told jason that, all the sign's are there for me being pregnant, and we get in the van and about to go, when the nurse come to my window and said, you have to come back in. the doctor wants to talk to you. and the first thing that come in my mind was that he was going to make me talk to the crisis team. and i said why? and she got this big smile on her face and she said, the doctor made a mistake ! so we went in, already knowing what that mistake was. and he told us that i was pregnant, and that he read the chart wrong. lol
we pumped. The baby is due march 15 2011. I hope i dont get sick.
I am a little freaked out about having 4 kids, but this is Gods work here. and i will go along with what ever God does for us.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

All about Jason

I have to answer 12 questions about Jason – and then have him check to see if I got them right. So here goes…


He is a Mechanical Engineering Technologist. Grad at Red River 2009


Fixing everything and anything to do with computers. and i mean ANYTHING !!


I am not sure, but if i had to guess it would have something to do with computers.


lol i am not sure, and i am guess thats what he would say. he couldn't pick out of all the
good food his mother makes.


Becoming a certified Engineer, maybe even inventing stuff.


What he is now....


to be out of debt and own are our farm and to go back for more schooling. (MIT!!!)


that he has gone so far in school and hasn't given up and is going back for more


i have no clue, there is like 11 on his mom's side i think, and i wouldn't even want to try to count his dad's side.


chirs and cory




computer games or wood working

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

My Confession

I have straggled with depression for a very long time. i have been on meds to help with it for 10 years. this past march, i was reading a book about giving everything up to Jesus and i asked God, what i wasn't giving up to him. and i heard him say my depression and my meds. i was so scared to go off them. i prayed about it with my husband and my sister in law. (God told me not to tell any one till the right time, only the people he told me i could.) and they got that i should do what God was telling me to do. so in march i stopped taking my meds, and for any one who was around me, if you remember me being really sick with really bad head Ac's, thats why.
It was really hard to come off them. my body would get really bad shocks. it really felt like i was getting shocked. It's been 5 months since i have been off my meds. and my depression has come back full force. and i have been begging God to take it away. i would say, you wanted me off them so i could be healed from them. and i could live a fuller life for you.
Every day, i have been battling suicidle thoughts and self hatred. Last year i was so happy and i loved my self and i thought i was beautiful and i was fun to be around and 2 months ago i wanted to loss weight, which was a really stupid idea, because i wasn't liking my self and i haven't lost any weight in that 2 months of working out and now i think i have failed that and now i feel like i am soo ugly and i keep thinking my husband wants me to look better, even though he never said that. and this past week i have been so depressed, and ever time i eat anything, i thought i should go throw it up because of how fat and ugly i was becoming. Today, everything was going wrong. i hated everything, i wanted to run away or hurt myself. and about 2 hours ago, i told jason that i needed to go back on my meds. the kids can see and feel that something was very wrong. and he was very support of me doing that, because he could see me going down. and an hour ago, i turned on my music,(ihop) and lay ed on the floor and the words of the song said "Lord have mercy, because your my only means, to have you here with me." and i started crying, and still am, and i was begging him not to be mad or sad that i can't do this, and i was telling him i was so sorry that i couldn't do this. and i was begging for mercy, and i felt him so strongly, he come to me and told me that he knew this was going to happen, that he's not mad or sad because this was meant to happen. and i asked him why was i given a task meant to fall, and he told me it was because of love. it was about falling in his arms, it was about him being able to show the kinda mercy he has, that his mercy is the only thing getting us to his kingdom. and another part of the same song was "as for me i will enter your house, by the mercy you are giving me now."
God's love and mercy was just over flowing in me and for me. his love is so storng and powerful.
I love my Jesus so much, he is so good. he knows everything i have been feeling. and he love me more then words could ever say. when i first went off my meds i thought God was telling me not to tell any one because i thought he was going to heal my depression and it could be a great story of his healing power and now i see that it was so that i could tell everyone of his unending mercy. that his mercy over flows when we fail. There are no words to say how loved i feel right now. Thank you Jesus for your kindness. even though we fail, you never fail and that's the point for trusting you !!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

ABC....All About Me

A- Attached or single: Attached, 7 years
B- Best Friend: Jason, My hubby.
C-Cake or Pie: Pie, warm cherry pic with chocolate ice cream.
D-Day: Sunday, Go to church and then go to the in-laws for dinner.
E- Essential Item: My bible and novels.
F- Favorite Color: Blue.
G-Gummi Bears or Worms: Gummi bears, RED ONES
H-Home town: Selkirk .MB
I- Indulgences: pepsi
J- January or July?: July- Hello beach !!
K-Kids: 3 of them, 5 years, 3 years, and almost 1, and more to come.
L-Life is incomplete without: Hearing Jesus talk to me.
M- Marriage Date: January 21, 2005
N- Number of Siblings: 4 brothers.2 older-2 younger
O- Oranges or Apples: Oranges, by far !!!
P- Phobias or Fears: spiders and cotten in my mouth
Q- Quote: " If God is for me, who can be against me"

R- Reason To Smile: seeing my kids playing and doing new things.
S- Season: Summer - fishing and vacations!
T- Tag Three: crystal, joanne and my mom
U- Unknown Fact About Me: i am allergic to alcohol.
V- Vegetarian or Oppressor of Animal: Definitely not a vegetarian. There's meat in most of my meals.
W- Worst Habit: cleaning at my ears, i think iam making myself go deaf.
X-Rays or Ultrasounds: Ultrasounds. had lots of them. there really cool. hoping that we can go for a 3d one next time around.
Y-Your favorite food: anything Jason's mother cooks is the best.
Z: Zodiac Sign: Pisces - not that i follow that crap any ways.

Monday, June 28, 2010

WHO AM I...........

I have been having a hard time latly. This song has been so helpful to me when people, the world, and the forcus unseen start to tell me that i am not worthy of anything i have and that i am not wanted and i should give up. God Speaks truth into me through this song.

psalm 139 / pslam 52 / ephesians 2

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt?
Who am I, that the bright and morning star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wondering heart?

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord You catch me when I'm falling
And You told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see our sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again?
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me?

Not because of who I am
But because what of You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord You catch me when I'm falling
And You told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord You catch me when I'm falling
You told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours, I am Yours

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am Yours, I am Yours

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Wii Fit Update

I have had my Wii Fit now for 40 days. i have only missed 10 days in those 40 days.
my last post about my Wii Fit, i had said that i couldnt break that 40 MBI (109 kg), and now i have, i am now 39 MBI almost 38, (107-106 kg). I am pumped. My dead line is july 13 2010 and my goal weight is for that time, is 36 MBI. so i am hoping i can do this. and stick with it, its soooo hard not eating junk. i have been caving in sometimes. mostly with pepis and chip's and the things i bake. i LOVE to bake with chocolate. and i love even more to eat it. i made Jason a chocolate whipped pudding pie for father's day, and its been starring at me all day now.
i have been trying to eat more fruit and veggies but its just not filling, i want bread and meats. lol this is so hard to do. so many times i want to give up and stuff my face. But i have to do this for my kids. i see them turning in to me and doing everything i am doing. and i dont want them to have this hardship of being over weight,(i dont think they could be over weight even if they tryed, there unrau's) lol i have to do some more research about what i can eat that will fill me and that is healthy, Let me know if you know of anything !!! Thanks for stopping by, God bless !!! I'll write again about My Wii work is going in 2 weeks. till then !!!!!

Sunday, June 13, 2010

New Things

So i live in a little town and my internet sucks, and won't let me post any pic's, so i am now at my mom's place and i can put some pic's on my blog that i have been wanting to share with every one. First Jason has become really good at wood working. he builded a well and a child size picknick talbe. i am so prode of him. and he loves doing it too.

And another thing was that i cut sibylla's hair for the first time. she is almost 3 years old and she is always getting big knots in her hair so i cut it. it was really hard for me to do, because it was so beautiful, but i knew i had to because it was hurting her.

And poor Lucious, he has 2 bad teeth and we tryed to take him to the dentise 3 times to fix it and he freaks out so now we have to put him under to fix them and, but last time when they tryed, they gave him frezzing in his mouth and he started to chew on his lower lip because he couldn't feel it and oh did he bite off a big peice of his lower lip and it got big and fat. Poor Lucious.

Beautiful Jesus

This past week i have been feeling so down and just wanted to go in my room and read my novel, and be left alone. last week we didn't go to church because i was sick and that effected me more then i thought it would. come friday i was feeling so depressed and hopless and didn't want anyone around me and then i heard jason praying for lucious, and something about that pray that stir something in me and i started to cry and when jason come in the room he prayed over me and the Holy Spirit spoke into me and the love of christ washed over me and i felt him talking to me again so strongly and powerfuly. after jason prayed we went and watched a church service we have on dvd and that spoke to me too. God was trying so hard to get a hold of me and last night at Church i just fall into his arms and worshiped with all my might and my hands were in the air all through the songs and i was in the front row, so for all i knew i was the only one with my hands in the air, but at the time i didnt care, it was just about me and Jesus. and the message was powerful and hit home with me. that i wasn't giving God my energy and time. this morning i woke up with a new hope and a new joy, and i got up and put priase and worship on (i always put my tv on first thing) and i singed to God and he pour his love and joy into me. i think i know what iam doing every morning now!!!! Glory to God forever !!!

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

It's Not Working !!!!!!!!

So i have had my Wii Fit Plus for 2 weeks now and i have not lost one lb !!!!
I haven't missed one day and i work out 30 mins a day and i am always sweating after and NOTHING !!! I watch what i eat now and i work out, out side of the wii fit. Why haven't i lost any weight. My MBI is 40.24, this morning and it has stayed in the 40 range, never 39 or 41 just 40 ish, and my goal is to get my MBI to 36 by the end of june. and this rate it dosen't look like its going to be happending. I am not giving up, i just hope that i start to see the weight come off, that all my hard work isn't for nothing. but you know i sure can feel my body getting stronger and tighter Wow my legs are super tight now !!! I am pumped about that.
Well i will give another repart about the weight lost project in another 2 weeks. Till then chow !!!

Monday, May 24, 2010

Prayer Summit

The pray Summit was last night and wow was it powerful.
Every one could feel the love of Christ flowing through the whole room. every one heard from God in a wonderful way. Even just thinking about it brings tears of joy to me.
I was parted with my cousin in law and a woman who sell's me flowers.
oh and Guess what, for the people who go to southland.......Ray Yoder is preaching the whole message next weekend!!! He has never done a message befor at southland, and his dad is flying all the way out to see his boy preach !!!
so nothing is going to keep me from going next weekend. bring the camara !!
I have fallen so in love with SouthLand, it is home to me and i love everyone there. Pastor Ray ( Duerksen ) has teached so many good thing to grow us all, but i see him do things, last night we were singing a song and well the music was going every one went up to take Communion
and we all went up and went to back to our set's and standing singing, and i saw pastor Ray serveing the band with the cup of jucie and a peice of bread. there were about 13 people on stage playing music for us and he served them all, it brough so much joy to me, and i could feel the love of Christ all around that buliding. Pastor Ray trully has the Heart of the Father !!

Thank you SouthLand for always bring there for me and for trully following what Jesus wants this Church to go. Thank you Jesus for making your bride beautiful and showing us how to be spotless, and thank you for the wonderful Gifts from the Holy Spirit !!
God Bless SouthLand !!!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Wii Fit Plus

We got a Wii Fit Plus on Friday. I decided to loss the weight i have put on over the years. when i was 16 i was 110 and now at 22 i am 218, and last month i had told every one that i like being over weight and i like how i look, which is true, i do like how i look, but i am always very tired and and laying down and the kids are always seeing that, and on Friday Lucious has pre-school and we walk there, only a 10 min walk, and on the way back Lucious was saying how tired he is and when we got home he lay ed down, and i so did i, and i ask him to get me something or do something and he is now always telling me that he is to tired and his back hurts. He is starting to say everything i am saying, and i realized on Friday that i am bringing him into lazyness and not helping him be active and enjoying life, so i decide to loss my weight and get active with him. so when jason got home from winnipeg, i made him go back there and get a Wii Fit, and i have been working out like crazy. and Lucious loves to work out on there too. and i started mowing the lawn, which is a work out all in its self. and last night jason bought me new running shoes and were fixing my bike tonight. I've only had the Wii Fit for 5 days and i have noticed such a big differences. i haven't lost any weight yet but i have more energy to do sooo much stuff. and i am having so much fun. My Short term goal is 20 lbs in 2 months. My Long time goal is to get down to my proper size for my height and age, which is around 125 lbs. i have a long run a head of me but playing over in my mind, how Lucious was acting is so worth it. and Having Such an amazing husband that is supporting me is a get bonus !!

Thursday, April 22, 2010


RESTORED, is a book i am reading right now. My mother in law is leaning it to me.
Its about taking back your freedom we have in Christ. and Holding strong on to the Cross.
Not letting the devil have any part of your.
I am on chapter 4. Letting go of bitterness and unforgivness.
i thought that i have dealed with a lot of my forgiving people but going throught the spets really showed me that i was blocking some memoiers and i just didn't think they had any hold on me, but Jesus showed them to me. I still have work to do in the area of forgiving.
Here are some really good passages for the book.
"Nobody can fix there past, but by the Grace of God we can be free from it."
and i love this one. "Bitterness is like swalloing posion and hoping the other person die's"

I am really enjoying this book, and i highly recommend it. It's called Restored by, Neil T. Anderson.

Last thought : In your steps of forgiving others, remember to forgive your self !!!
Everyone fall's short of God Glory, but not so short that his hand is still right there to help you back up. He DIED so that he could forgive you, just by you asking, and he can heal your heart of the hatered and bitterness you have towareds your self. Let go and Let God !!!!

Monday, April 19, 2010

I am a Bad Toothfairy !!!!!!!!

Lucious lost his 1st tooth about 2 weeks ago, and i just put it in a jar and was going to put it under his pillow later......and now it has been later, so last night i put his tooth in a little baggy and told him when you wake up look under your pillow and the tooth fairy will have left you money for your tooth. and Lucious went to bed all happy.
this morning as Jason was waking pass his room at 6am to go to work, Lucious call's to him and goes " didn't work" We forgot to put money under his pillow. oh we felt so bad. i ask Jason if he had any money on him right now and he said he had $5, and i told him to go give that to him, but jason said that we will do that tonight,
but Lucious is taking it very good. he said he will try again to put his tooth under his pillow tonight. Jason and i are going to give him $2 but all in courters.
Hopefully next time we will be better Toothfairys.

Thursday, April 15, 2010


Have you ever said the words "Oh My God " ???
Jars of Clay wrote a powerful song about those words.

"Oh My God"

Oh my God, look around this place
Your fingers reach around the bone
You set the break and set the tone
Flights of grace, and future falls
In present pain
All fools say, "Oh my God"

Oh my God, Why are we so afraid?
We make it worse when we don't bleed
There is no cure for our disease
Turn a phrase, and rise again
Or fake your death and only tell your closest friend
Oh my God.

Oh my God, can I complain?
You take away my firm belief and graft my soul upon your grief
Weddings, boats and alibis
All drift away, and a mother cries

Liars and fools; sons and failures
Thieves will always say
Lost and found; ailing wanderers
Healers always say
Whores and angels; men with problems
Leavers always say
Broken hearted; separated
Orphans always say
War creators; racial haters
Preachers always say
Distant fathers; fallen warriors
Givers always say
Pilgrim saints; lonely widows
Users always say
Fearful mothers; watchful doubters
Saviors always say

Sometimes I cannot forgive
And these days, mercy cuts so deep
If the world was how it should be, maybe I could get some sleep
While I lay, I dream we're better,
Scales were gone and faces light
When we wake, we hate our brother
We still move to hurt each other
Sometimes I can close my eyes,
And all the fear that keeps me silent falls below my heavy breathing,
What makes me so badly bent?
We all have a chance to murder
We all feel the need for wonder
We still want to be reminded that the pain is worth the thunder

Sometimes when I lose my grip, I wonder what to make of heaven
All the times I thought to reach up
All the times I had to give
Babies underneath their beds
Hospitals that cannot treat all the wounds that money causes,
All the comforts of cathedrals
All the cries of thirsty children - this is our inheritance
All the rage of watching mothers - this is our greatest offense

Oh my God
Oh my God
Oh my God

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Monday, April 12, 2010

My Husband is so Mean !!!

Now iam going to rabbit trail a little and give you a little story be for i tell you what my husband said to me.
Jason is a joker, he makes jokes all the time and "thinks" he's the funnest. Now at Easter dinner at his parents place, we all set at the table to play a game of Apple's to Apple's,(super fun) all but Jason's brother David and his wife Crystal. they sat on the couch, snuggling. And were all making jokes about them going off to be "alone" !! and some one said "they could go to the barn"and someone else said "ya the sheep will keep them company" and Jason goes, 'will David is Scottish" (as to say he can have sex with a sheep because he's Scottish) i punched him in the arm for saying that, but he still thought it was soo funny. Anyways, last night we were in bed, and Jason is try to fool around and i said i was too tired to, and i joking said, "go find a goat you Scott's' man" and then he looked right at me and said "found one" !!!!!!
SO DIDN'T GO OVER GOOD !!! He's just killing him self laughing and iam trying to kick him out of my bed !!! I couldn't be live he would say that to me !!! LOL i still can't believe he said that to me. and yes he did later say he was sorry, but only with a big smile on his face !!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

New Stuff

So lot's of stuff has happened.
Easter was amazing. check out
and go to testimonies and its April 3-4 "cardboard testimonies"
so good. i cry every time i watch it.
there is an old man on there saying his wife will soon die...........she died the day after this was taken. But we all know that she is in the arms of her father.
so yesterday, i went for a walk with the kids, and it looked nice out and its was like 14 out and i went out in shorts and a tank top, and i locked my door and went for that walk. and then as i was walking i realized i dont have my keys. i know, so smart. lol so i was locked out for 2 hours, and it wasn't as warm as i thought it was. so i was cooled. but we sat in our porch and all our games are in the porch so we played games and we have a shelf out in the porch with snack food, so we had snacks too. so it wasn't so bad.
we had to take sibylla to the walk in last evening, she has pink eye. poor bylla.
and on Tuesday i took the kids to the dentist, and lucious has to get two fillings and its going to cost $600..i didnt think it would cost so much. its crazy.
there going to give him laughing gas but i dont think that going to help. i think we going to have to put him under. sadly. but i know other kids that had to do that.

101 IN 1001
# 56 is done, starting a game night with the kids, every Wednesday. the kids love to play the games.
#69 is done and on going, baking food for my mom to take to work. i baking muffins for her, and jason just bought my a texts muffin tin so i can make her jumbo muffins.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

If i were.....

If I were a month, I’d be June.
If I were a day of the week, I’d be Sunday.
If I were a time of day, I’d be 11am.
If I were a planet, I’d be Saturn.
If I were a sea animal, I’d be an Jelly fish.
If I were a direction, I’d be south.
If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a bed.
If I were a liquid, I’d be Ice tea.
If I were a gemstone, I’d be a black onyx.
If I were a tree, I’d be a apple tree.
If I were a tool, I’d be measuring tape.
If I were a flower, I’d be a bleeding heart.
If I were a kind of weather, I’d be a blizzard.
If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a Violin.
If I were a color, I’d be Blue.
If I were an emotion, I’d be Joyful.
If I were a fruit, I’d be a pinapple.
If I were an element, I’d be water.
If I were a car, I’d be a Honda.
If I were a food, I’d be lasanga.
If I were a place, I’d be an Island.
If I were a material, I’d be wool.
If I were a scent, I’d be after the rain in the air.
If I were an animal, I’d be a horse.
If I were a facial expression, I’d be a smile.
If I were a song, I’d be The blessing by, john waller .
If I were a pair of shoes, flip-flops.

I coped this from my sister-in-law crystal and thought it looked fun. so i took out what she put in and put in my style !!
copy and paste it and try it for your self !!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

101 in 1001 Completions

My 101 in 1001 list, number # 35 is half way done. its say's two outside door and we got it done on saturday, and jaosn is picking up our 2ed one today after work. the door we had didn't lock and dosen't close. so we are very happy we got this done.
# 60 is done,(tim cards for pan-handlers) well we bought the cards and just waiting to see pan-handlers/homeless ppl.
#95 new picture frams for the kids pic's, done and hugging in my living room !! looking great !!

I had pictures of our old door and our new one but, iam having a lot of trouble loading them, so i can't, sorry about that.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

101 in 1001

The Mission:
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria:
Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days?
Many people have created lists in the past – frequently simple goals such as New Year’s resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

101 in 1001

1. get down to 2 hours a week of TV
2. grow my nails longer
3. get down to 180 lbs
4. cut half of my chocolate out
5. get a van
6. get my full drivers
7. start doing yoga fitness
8. read the whole bible
9. read all of ted Decker books
10. get my scars removed
11. sign up to sing at church
12. get involved in the high school min
13. teach my kids the meaning of forgiveness
14. go out with just me and my dad
15. teach the truth to my grand parents
16. get Lucious in hockey and swimming
17. eating out only once a month
18. get Sibylla and Elijah a schooling fund
19. write a short story and get it published
20. have “the talk” with Lucious
21. stop drinking juice
22. give away half of Lucious' and Sibylla's toys
23. get my cat back
24. force my self to go to the dentist
25. get my belly button pierced
26. stop yelling at my kids
27. learn Hebrew
28. start always shopping at the MCC
29. rent movie's once a month
30. started praying every night with Jason
31. try ice wine
32. make a Christmas dinner on my own
33. have Elijah potty trained
34. paint my house
35. get 2 new out side doors
36. take the kids to a water-fall
37. take the kids to Oak Hammock Marsh
38. fast for 7 -14 days
39. make a legal will
40. go on a missions trip
41. sell the stuff we don't need
42. buy new dinner table chairs
43. get all my hair braided
44. get better Internet
45. make flower boxes for outside
46. have another baby :-)
47. get into a sport (tennis)
48. get new windows and siding on my trailer
49. start a RSP
50. design a dress
51. go white water rafting
52. make a new friend
53. pray for people I don't know
54. make chilli and brownies for the perk
55. have a day alone with each of my children
56. start a game night with the kids
57. let the kids cook and bake with me
58. make a behavior chart for lucious and Sibylla
59. support Jason through university
60. get Tim Horton's coffee cards for pan-handlers
61. help out at Shalom Missions
62. treat my mom to dinner and a movie
63. give Jason a back/head rub once a week
64. take the kids for a walk everyday
65. take the kids on a Winnipeg city bus
66. learn everything about JW'S
67. teach Sibylla not to poop in her underwear
68. get a new washer and dryer
69. make baking for my moms to take to work
70. go on a plane with Jason
71. get over my fear of spiders, by getting one
72. make Christmas shoes boxes
73. give blood
74. finish Sibylla scrapbook
75. start Elijah scrapbook
76. stop buying toys for my kids
77. get a new cell phone
78. start doing crafts with my kids
79. give to the food drive
80. plan a 50Th birthday party for my mom
81. try food I think sound gross
82. do star gazing with the kids
83. take down the wall paper in my kitchen
84. start a bible and pray night with the kids
85. get new curtains for the living room
86. stop being scared to call the cops, when I see people breaking the law
87. start playing computer games with Jason
88. read the 5 love languages to Jason
89. have family and friend BBQ in summer
90. buy 10 bibles and give them away
91. do my family tree at day break
92. see a real wolf, in person
93. learn CPR
94. go swimming once a month
95. get new picture frames for the kids
96. get a family picture taken
97. read some of the bible daily to my kids
98. take the kids camping
99. BBQ once a week
100. pray for others every day
101. spread the Word of God to my family

Friday, March 5, 2010

Brandon Heath

I love the song this man sings. so powerful and moving!!
God must have had a hand in writing the music.
Enjoy !!!
Love never fails.
Give me your eyes.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

My Kids are so cute !!!

Here are some cute short storeys about what my wonderful Kids have done this past week.
Lucious: this story isn't so cute, but worth writing about. On Monday morning, around 2am i woke up to a sound in my room and when i opened my eyes, there was a dark figure standing over me and be for i had time to be in total shock, it grabbed my face. It was Lucious. and i didn't know that until i screamed and he ran out of my room crying. he scared me and i scared him by him scaring me. poor boy. and all he wanted was to sleep next to me because he wasn't feeling good.
Sibylla: this isn't cute either, really its fairly gross. she is now potty trained and he likes to take out the little tray from her potty and dump it in the big potty. one day i walked into the bathroom and fold her little potty tray on my to everyone's tooth brush's !!!
she wash her potty with our tooth brushes!!! i wonder how long she has been doing that.
and yes we went and bought new toothbrush's.
last night, sibylla slept in our room, we made her a bed on the floor. ( Elijah is sleeping in her room so he can cry himself to sleep and sleep throw the night) anyways, she woke up around 3am screaming, and i turned on the light and went to her and she was still some what sleeping, and she told me about her bad dream. and then she said, "pray". she wanted me to pray for her. i was so over joyed that her first instinct when she got scared was to pray. it kept me up for another hour, thanking God.
Elijah: He peed on me !!!! lol and he kills himself laughing when i am changing his poopy bum !!!
As i said above elijah is in another room, crying himself to sleep,and on Saturday night, was the first night he sleep ed and didnt wake up. the past two nights though, i brought him in our bed again, because my boobs were going to blow up, i needed to feed him. I was making my bed very wet !!
so those are my storeys. i hope you had a good time reading them.
till next time !!!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010


Life is full of light and shadows, oh, the joy and oh, the sorrow, oh, the sorrow.
and yet will he bring day from night, and yet will he bring dark to light.
When shadows fall on us, we will not fear, we will remember, when darkness falls on us,
we will not fear we will remember, when all seems lost, when we're thrown and were tossed, we'll remember the cost, we're resting in the shadow of the CROSS.

check it out on youtube. they have so many great, powerful songs.

From Heather

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Every new

Little Elijah


My three Baby's

My new living-room

My new kitchen

Wow, haven't been on here in for ever.

ok so some new things have happend,


So happy about that. umm....

God has been doing so much latly, its so wonderful,

some things i can't say what has been happending but trust me

when i say GOD IS GOOD !!!!

Well iam going to put some pic's on and ya.