Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Lost

My Beautiful, sweet baby growing in my belly is gone.
On sunday morning i started bleeding and i went to the hospital and they couldn't
find a heart beat, and at 12 weeks you should be able to find one.
on monday morning i went to my doctor who is taking care of my pregnantcy and he
also couldn't find a heart beat and this morning i had an ultrasound and it showed that the
baby was not alive. My heart is breaking but God has not let go of my hand.
Jason has been by my side and my mom too. and my sister in law is helping a lot to because
she also had a miscarrage 3 years ago. i am so greatful for the loving family i have all around me.
and i am also so greatful that i can always feel Jesus' love on me. as hard as this is, i am at peace with it. I know my sweet baby is in the arms of my Lord and i will see that baby when i get to heaven. it remains me of that song...oh i dont know who sings it but it gose..."lost befor i had you, gone befor you came, but i love you just the same. and i know in heaven will meet again." its a beautiful song about just what iam feeling.
thank you Jesus for the wonderful 3 months i had this wonderful child growing in me.
I love you Jesus and i trust your plan for me is good and full of love.

1 comment:

Mrs.G said...

My Dear Girl
My heart breaks along with yours and Jason's...Oh, How we love them even before we have beheld them...
XOXO
.....For about, sweet Crimson...
Psalm 139:16
"Your eyes saw my unformed substance, and in Your book all the days [of my life] were written before ever they took shape, when as yet there was none of them."

God is truly good...Keep resting in Him,your Father holds you, as He is holding our little Crimson...He ses your tears and knows your pain.
I love you my girl.
Mom