Mother-Daughter Day

Me and my beautiful little girl went out for a wonderful walk to the town store/cafe for lunch. just the two of us, which we haven't done before. we had such a great time. she picked up a bunch of rocks and wanted to feed them to the cows we past. lol and then she wanted to keep them because she said it was her money, but then i showed her the little card daddy gave me and told her we dont need rocks we have daddys money, and that put a big smile on her. lol
we both had cheese bugers, she didnt eat her but she wanted to give it to daddy. but she ate all her fyrs, but i am thinking that she ate more kechup then fyrs. then we shared a chocolate bar together. It was such a great time. when we got home i told jason that iam going to take her out just me and her once a month. i would like to do it more often but we trying to save money so, but jason said he's fine with once a month.
i feel so blessed to have such a wonderful daughter. i hope we always have boys from now on, so she will always be my one and only baby girl !!

For Husbands & Fathers

Lead me


I look around and see my wonderful life
Almost perfect from the outside
In picture frames I see my beautiful wife
Always smiling
But on the inside I can hear her saying…

Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can’t
Don’t leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams what about us?

Show me you’re willing to fight
That I’m still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone;

I see their faces look in their innocent eyes
They’re just children from the outside
I’m working hard I tell myself they’ll be fine
They’re in independent
But on the inside I can hear them saying…

Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can’t
Don’t leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams but what about us?

Show me you’re willing to fight
That I’m still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone;

So Father give me the strength
To be everything I’m called to be
Oh Father show me the way
To lead them
Won’t You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can’t
Don’t want to leave them hungry for love
Chasing things that I could give up

I’ll show them I’m willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me ’cause I can’t do this alone

Father lead me ’cause I can’t do this alone

Watch the video at
http://www.westshoresixten.com/2010/05/lead-me.html

Head Covering

A HEAD COVERING

I have decide to wear a head covering.
Lol I know I lot of people who read my blog are
probably shacking there heads but I feel called by my Lord to
wear one, and I am not one to say no to God.
I have spend almost a year reading and studying and praying about this.

I will simply give the verse in the bible to why I
am choosing to wear one.
1 Corinthians 11: 1-16

I will also copy a blog I read about head coverings.



“Here is a simple way to explain 1 Corinthians 11

When you look at the original Greek, its meaning is quite clear. Two words for covering were turned into one when translated to English.
The reason for wearing the covering, is because of the Fall. Eve usurped her role. From that point on, a womans Natural glory had to be covered when she communed with God. A women covers so she may take her God given place when she is before the throne praying, and when she is witnessing to others. The angels see this, even those that are fallen, and marvel at the obedience shown to God.”


"The wearing of fabric head coverings in worship was universally the practice of Christian women until the twentieth century. What happened? Did we suddenly find some biblical truth to which the saints for thousands of years were blind? Or were our biblical views of women gradually eroded by the modern feminist movement that has infiltrated the Church of Jesus Christ which is "the pillar and ground of the truth"
Galatians is a powerful polemic against the Judaizers who were trying to draw the churches of Galatia away from salvation by grace through faith in Jesus Christ alone.
Paul wrote to correct two errors: Do you have to become a Jew before you can be saved? The second error was, "If Christ has set us free, then we can live as we please!"
He demonstrates clearly the only way sinful man can stand before a holy God is by God’s grace made available through the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. We are saved by grace through faith in Christ alone, and we are also sanctified by grace through faith (3:3). The Judaizers taught that works was necessary for salvation and sanctification. It was a religion based on legalism. Someone said, "Judaism was the cradle of Christianity and very nearly its grave."


http://steveandpaularunyan.blogspot.com/2008/04/headcovering.html

If I could I would wear this kinda head covering but my husband wont let me.
So I have one that covers all my hair but not my neck. There bandanas, and more
of the menonite look. Jason says I look like a Muslim.

This is the kinda head covering I will be wearing.
I have a bunch of different kinda colores.

Saying GoodBye

On Sept 8th was the Ecumenical Memorial and Committal of Ashes Service for the baby we Miscarried. I was a beautiful day for it, and it was in the same cemetery that my Grandparents are bared at, so i got to go visit them too. It was hard to be there. They had the ashes of all the babys miscarried/stillborns in the past 6 months put in to the crypt. that was the hardest part for me, them pouring the ashes into it. there was a lot of people there, it was hard to be alone, plus my kids were there so. I am happy that my family came, thanks to mom, brentt and mom and dad (unrau) for coming. and thank you so much for my loving husband, who saw how sad i was and went and bought me a new Ted Dekker book. thanks sweety.
and a big thanks to St.Boniface Hospital for taking care of my little baby with such care and doing a beautiful service for him.

Rest in the arms of our sweet Lord Jesus Christ, My Baby Crimson.
Mommy loves you and thinks of you everyday.

Ted Dekker

On my 101 in 1001 list, one of them is to read all of Ted Dekker's books. i have about 10 more to go. 4 of them short stories. i just finished boneman's daughters. very good. my next book on my list is House. then iam hoping Tea with Hezbollah. The book is not a novel like all his others. its about a trip he and a friend made to the middle east. Below the title it reads, sitting at the enemies table. my mother in law is reading it right now so when i get it back from her, i know my nose will be in that book all night. being in bed for the past week i read boneman's daughters in 4 days. I plan on owning all of Ted Dekker's book and reading them all. i love all his books. i haven't read one i haven't liked. Adam was the hardest to read because of how my past was but i still read it in 2 days. His new book Immanuel's veins looks soooo good. it comes out sept 7 and i will be the first in line for it. i know jason might say other wise but i know i will get my way. :)
the ones i still have to read are:
- Blink of an eye
-The bride collector
-A man called blessed
-Immanuels veins
-Obessed
-House (reading now)
-Tea with hezbolliah
and there are four short stories.
I'm super pumped about reading them all. My favorte our, Black, Red, White, and Green !!!
You can find all stuff Ted Dekker at his website. www.teddekker.com

Lost

My Beautiful, sweet baby growing in my belly is gone.
On sunday morning i started bleeding and i went to the hospital and they couldn't
find a heart beat, and at 12 weeks you should be able to find one.
on monday morning i went to my doctor who is taking care of my pregnantcy and he
also couldn't find a heart beat and this morning i had an ultrasound and it showed that the
baby was not alive. My heart is breaking but God has not let go of my hand.
Jason has been by my side and my mom too. and my sister in law is helping a lot to because
she also had a miscarrage 3 years ago. i am so greatful for the loving family i have all around me.
and i am also so greatful that i can always feel Jesus' love on me. as hard as this is, i am at peace with it. I know my sweet baby is in the arms of my Lord and i will see that baby when i get to heaven. it remains me of that song...oh i dont know who sings it but it gose..."lost befor i had you, gone befor you came, but i love you just the same. and i know in heaven will meet again." its a beautiful song about just what iam feeling.
thank you Jesus for the wonderful 3 months i had this wonderful child growing in me.
I love you Jesus and i trust your plan for me is good and full of love.

101 in 1001 update

so looking over my list i can see i few things that are done.

46: having another baby. i am pregnant, so its in the works lol
63: giving jason a head and back rub once a week, which i do almost everyday.
77:getting a new cell phone. jason got a new one so i got his palm. its ok.
98: going camping with the kids, well we booked it and went and it went so very bad that we ended up leaving didn't go good at all.

so those are done.
i know i saw a few things on the list that are almost done. so i will update again in a couple of weeks.
till then.