A painful good-bye

About 3 weeks ago, my grandma passed away. she was 79 years old and she die of a heart attack.

she had the best laugh ever. i think it was because she was French. lol. When my dad called me and told me that she had died, i cry so much. it was so painful. and so much guilt come over me. see i haven't seen my grandma in 2 years. she hasn't even meet my 1 year old girl. I couldn't wrap my mind around that she died with out seeing her. i always wanted to go and see her. It hurt very much. i hope that she never thought that i didn't love her. i couldn't handle it if that's what she thought why i wasn't coming by. At the funeral we all come together as a family. it was really nice. My grandma's sister was there. and they look the same. it was like, my grandma was there, looking at her. i wanted so badly to through my arms around her and tell her how sorry i am. But i am happy that she is with Jesus now. free from pain. and with her hubby. my grandpa died in 2001. so she's been waiting 8 years to see him again. so i am very happy that there together again. i cant wait till i go home to, and i can see them. it well be nice.

Love you grandma and grandpa

Lucious is 3 years old.

WOW....my boy is 3 !!!!!! I can't belive it. its crazy. i still remeber when he was born and so small. and now he's so big and talks so much. We had so much fun on his birthday. on friday, oct 17, jason and i got him a thomas the train laptop and a pizzel. he loved it.then we went to the pool with grandma. (jasons mom) and then went back to jason's parents place for a bon-fire and had a wenner roast.

on oct 18, we went to my mom's pplace and it was all micky mouse stuff there. and my mom got him some movies and micky stuff and a nice pear a jeans. and we had a micky mouse cake. it was a great time.

on oct 19, we went to chruch and he got to go the threes room and play on the slide. and then we went over to jason's parent's place, and they hooked the horse up to a waggen and went for a ride with every one. the kids loved it and were jumping off the back. it was great. and then we went back to the house and had dinner and then Lucious opened his gift, witch was a car things.(you know..lol boy stuff) and then we had birthday cake, witch was thomas the train, 3D . it was the cookest cake every, and oh my, it was so good. Lucious eat thomas's face and its butt. it was funny. he eat just the icing. ummm...sugar. and then we went outside and had fireworks and and spriklers and the kids had a blast. and it took really cool pics. we were going to carve pumpkins but we didnt have time to. next week. we had so much fun, but best of all Lucious had fun.

Jason and Me

Jason was in our room playing around with the laptop and we have a little webcam in it and i was in the shower and when i came in the room he pulled me and took a bunch of pics of us. lol

Sorry for the really funny faces jason always makes, but hey, lol thats him. and i love thats hes so goffy. lol.

me and jason have been together for almost 6 years and we have been married for almost 4 years. and we are loving every min of it.

sure we have stuff to deal with in marriage but who dosen't.

we just give it to God and work hard at the blessings God pours out.

Happy Birthday Who ???

lol... it was so funny. last weekend was davids birthday and this last weekend was bryans birthday... and me and jason and david and crystal was sitting at the dinner talbe talk and saying funny things and just having a great time laughing and then divid was telling me something that out friend stafen was saying and it was funny and then joanne walk in the room with bryan's birthdays cake and started singing happy birthday and we stop talking and sang and long and when it go to the part " happy birthday bryan...." i go "daivd" ...lmso....everyone laughed at me...well really i was laughing too. there are so many birthdays in the fall i get so mixed up...next weekend is the kids birthday and then after that is my brothers birthday and then after that is my sons birthday, and then there is my daughter's birthday. lol.....iam sure i'll make it up to bryan on next weekend birthday. lol

Giving into God

Ok this is close to my heart so, I've been pulling away from God for a while, and its hard for me becuase i love him so much and i want to be with him. I been dealing with sin, and i just been gettin it in my head that i can't go to God for love or a friend to talk to when my heart is hurting, and i just kept pulling away from God, and i needed to talk to some one and i start talking to my uncle and he said something that must have come from the Holy Sprit. He told me that we are all sinners and that if iam waiting till iam fixed and not sinning anymore to come close to God, that day will never happend, becuase we are all sinners and the only day i won't sin is when i go home hand in hand with Jesus.
that just really encouraged me and i hope that if anyone reads this and i know that you sin, i hope this will help you, to keep coming to Jesus for forgiveness and a really helping friend.

Me,Jake and Matt....THE DOIRON'S

you seen the pic of me with my oldest brother matt, and when jake come over for a visit, i HAD to get a pic of all of us together, we haven't had a pic of us all together seens i was 14. I love this pic of us...iam all smiles and they're all "G" looking. lol, like i said on my facebook. they'll kick anyones ass that messes with me. lol

ME AND MY BIG BROTHER

This is my big brother Matt. hes the oldest, 24 years old. and i have 3 other brothers..Jake who is almost 22 and then there are my little brothers ..... Zakk who is 10 and Chad who is 6.
i see Matt the most because Jake and Zakk and Chad live with my dad.

Matt is showing me how to wear a hat. so i can be a " GANGSTER" LOL