Beautiful Jesus

This past week i have been feeling so down and just wanted to go in my room and read my novel, and be left alone. last week we didn't go to church because i was sick and that effected me more then i thought it would. come friday i was feeling so depressed and hopless and didn't want anyone around me and then i heard jason praying for lucious, and something about that pray that stir something in me and i started to cry and when jason come in the room he prayed over me and the Holy Spirit spoke into me and the love of christ washed over me and i felt him talking to me again so strongly and powerfuly. after jason prayed we went and watched a church service we have on dvd and that spoke to me too. God was trying so hard to get a hold of me and last night at Church i just fall into his arms and worshiped with all my might and my hands were in the air all through the songs and i was in the front row, so for all i knew i was the only one with my hands in the air, but at the time i didnt care, it was just about me and Jesus. and the message was powerful and hit home with me. that i wasn't giving God my energy and time. this morning i woke up with a new hope and a new joy, and i got up and put priase and worship on (i always put my tv on first thing) and i singed to God and he pour his love and joy into me. i think i know what iam doing every morning now!!!! Glory to God forever !!!

It's Not Working !!!!!!!!

So i have had my Wii Fit Plus for 2 weeks now and i have not lost one lb !!!!
I haven't missed one day and i work out 30 mins a day and i am always sweating after and NOTHING !!! I watch what i eat now and i work out, out side of the wii fit. Why haven't i lost any weight. My MBI is 40.24, this morning and it has stayed in the 40 range, never 39 or 41 just 40 ish, and my goal is to get my MBI to 36 by the end of june. and this rate it dosen't look like its going to be happending. I am not giving up, i just hope that i start to see the weight come off, that all my hard work isn't for nothing. but you know i sure can feel my body getting stronger and tighter Wow my legs are super tight now !!! I am pumped about that.
Well i will give another repart about the weight lost project in another 2 weeks. Till then chow !!!

Prayer Summit

The pray Summit was last night and wow was it powerful.
Every one could feel the love of Christ flowing through the whole room. every one heard from God in a wonderful way. Even just thinking about it brings tears of joy to me.
I was parted with my cousin in law and a woman who sell's me flowers.
oh and Guess what, for the people who go to southland.......Ray Yoder is preaching the whole message next weekend!!! He has never done a message befor at southland, and his dad is flying all the way out to see his boy preach !!!
so nothing is going to keep me from going next weekend. bring the camara !!
I have fallen so in love with SouthLand, it is home to me and i love everyone there. Pastor Ray ( Duerksen ) has teached so many good thing to grow us all, but i see him do things, last night we were singing a song and well the music was going every one went up to take Communion
and we all went up and went to back to our set's and standing singing, and i saw pastor Ray serveing the band with the cup of jucie and a peice of bread. there were about 13 people on stage playing music for us and he served them all, it brough so much joy to me, and i could feel the love of Christ all around that buliding. Pastor Ray trully has the Heart of the Father !!
Thank you SouthLand for always bring there for me and for trully following what Jesus wants this Church to go. Thank you Jesus for making your bride beautiful and showing us how to be spotless, and thank you for the wonderful Gifts from the Holy Spirit !!
God Bless SouthLand !!!

Wii Fit Plus

We got a Wii Fit Plus on Friday. I decided to loss the weight i have put on over the years. when i was 16 i was 110 and now at 22 i am 218, and last month i had told every one that i like being over weight and i like how i look, which is true, i do like how i look, but i am always very tired and and laying down and the kids are always seeing that, and on Friday Lucious has pre-school and we walk there, only a 10 min walk, and on the way back Lucious was saying how tired he is and when we got home he lay ed down, and i so did i, and i ask him to get me something or do something and he is now always telling me that he is to tired and his back hurts. He is starting to say everything i am saying, and i realized on Friday that i am bringing him into lazyness and not helping him be active and enjoying life, so i decide to loss my weight and get active with him. so when jason got home from winnipeg, i made him go back there and get a Wii Fit, and i have been working out like crazy. and Lucious loves to work out on there too. and i started mowing the lawn, which is a work out all in its self. and last night jason bought me new running shoes and were fixing my bike tonight. I've only had the Wii Fit for 5 days and i have noticed such a big differences. i haven't lost any weight yet but i have more energy to do sooo much stuff. and i am having so much fun. My Short term goal is 20 lbs in 2 months. My Long time goal is to get down to my proper size for my height and age, which is around 125 lbs. i have a long run a head of me but playing over in my mind, how Lucious was acting is so worth it. and Having Such an amazing husband that is supporting me is a get bonus !!

RESTORED

RESTORED, is a book i am reading right now. My mother in law is leaning it to me.
Its about taking back your freedom we have in Christ. and Holding strong on to the Cross.
Not letting the devil have any part of your.
I am on chapter 4. Letting go of bitterness and unforgivness.
i thought that i have dealed with a lot of my forgiving people but going throught the spets really showed me that i was blocking some memoiers and i just didn't think they had any hold on me, but Jesus showed them to me. I still have work to do in the area of forgiving.
Here are some really good passages for the book.
"Nobody can fix there past, but by the Grace of God we can be free from it."
and i love this one. "Bitterness is like swalloing posion and hoping the other person die's"

I am really enjoying this book, and i highly recommend it. It's called Restored by, Neil T. Anderson.

Last thought : In your steps of forgiving others, remember to forgive your self !!!
Everyone fall's short of God Glory, but not so short that his hand is still right there to help you back up. He DIED so that he could forgive you, just by you asking, and he can heal your heart of the hatered and bitterness you have towareds your self. Let go and Let God !!!!

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I am a Bad Toothfairy !!!!!!!!

Lucious lost his 1st tooth about 2 weeks ago, and i just put it in a jar and was going to put it under his pillow later......and now it has been later, so last night i put his tooth in a little baggy and told him when you wake up look under your pillow and the tooth fairy will have left you money for your tooth. and Lucious went to bed all happy.
this morning as Jason was waking pass his room at 6am to go to work, Lucious call's to him and goes "dad.........it didn't work" We forgot to put money under his pillow. oh we felt so bad. i ask Jason if he had any money on him right now and he said he had $5, and i told him to go give that to him, but jason said that we will do that tonight,
but Lucious is taking it very good. he said he will try again to put his tooth under his pillow tonight. Jason and i are going to give him $2 but all in courters.
Hopefully next time we will be better Toothfairys.

OH MY GOD !!!

Have you ever said the words "Oh My God " ???
Jars of Clay wrote a powerful song about those words.


"Oh My God"

Oh my God, look around this place
Your fingers reach around the bone
You set the break and set the tone
Flights of grace, and future falls
In present pain
All fools say, "Oh my God"

Oh my God, Why are we so afraid?
We make it worse when we don't bleed
There is no cure for our disease
Turn a phrase, and rise again
Or fake your death and only tell your closest friend
Oh my God.

Oh my God, can I complain?
You take away my firm belief and graft my soul upon your grief
Weddings, boats and alibis
All drift away, and a mother cries

Liars and fools; sons and failures
Thieves will always say
Lost and found; ailing wanderers
Healers always say
Whores and angels; men with problems
Leavers always say
Broken hearted; separated
Orphans always say
War creators; racial haters
Preachers always say
Distant fathers; fallen warriors
Givers always say
Pilgrim saints; lonely widows
Users always say
Fearful mothers; watchful doubters
Saviors always say

Sometimes I cannot forgive
And these days, mercy cuts so deep
If the world was how it should be, maybe I could get some sleep
While I lay, I dream we're better,
Scales were gone and faces light
When we wake, we hate our brother
We still move to hurt each other
Sometimes I can close my eyes,
And all the fear that keeps me silent falls below my heavy breathing,
What makes me so badly bent?
We all have a chance to murder
We all feel the need for wonder
We still want to be reminded that the pain is worth the thunder

Sometimes when I lose my grip, I wonder what to make of heaven
All the times I thought to reach up
All the times I had to give
Babies underneath their beds
Hospitals that cannot treat all the wounds that money causes,
All the comforts of cathedrals
All the cries of thirsty children - this is our inheritance
All the rage of watching mothers - this is our greatest offense

Oh my God
Oh my God
Oh my God


Also look for it on http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=txqeyisb688